Random Rambles

Well this weekend I went to visit my family in southern California for my grandpa Bruce's funeral..it was the worst weekend ever. I got to see my son, that must have been just the best part...but even then there were things with in that that just added it to being horrible.

On a positive note, im glad that everyone in our family was all together even with drama crap that goes on. Not one person was missing. My grandpa would have loved it..and in spirit I know he did. My grandma bough these really neat butterflies, apparently they are doormant and you keep them in the fridge but you take them out about 2 hours before a ceremony or whatever you have going on and they come to life. My grandma bought 5 dozen for everyone to be able to get a little butterfly box and release it, She paid like $550 for them BUT in the end it was all worth it for sure. After my mom said a few words and a prayer was said we all as a family released these gorgeous butterflies into the sky (i Have a video) ..ahh.. I know my grandpa was there just around all of us. It didnt feel like he was gone.. I didnt feel sad..I felt at peace. He was all around us. & I know he still is :-)

Now im in the hotel room, really wishing I was in utah. I never thought I wouls miss it so much. There is just nothing positive here in california for me besides my son. I am tired of being judged and critisized, I ust want to be back where I am who I am and im LOVED for it.

Oh well I cant change how people feel or act.

Love ya'll - pictures and vids coming soon!